i was out of the house all day. i woke up ate a buritto and then i was whisked away to the exchange. i bought some gifts for crystals grandmother and my mom bought me a rice cooker. its pretty sweet. i can not only cook rice but also soups and steam vegetables. its sweet. yeah. on a highlight i bought a dvd player! but then returned it b/c my tv is too old circa 1970 oh well ill get a cooler one when im really ready.dvd player that is. i saw lots of people that graduated a while ago at best buy and in the wherehouse. i got brand new and the new coldplay. both soooooo good. i was going to buy tickets at ticketmaster but noo it was closed. i guess thats what tomorrow is for. i dont know but it was really crowded in all the stores today. i guess b/c of all the sales and such.

haha woke up early again to listen kevin and beans breakfast with no doubt. it was good then i went back to sleep. i washed the dishes. i almost had an encounter with the animal control. bastards! they talked to my nieghbors b/c their dog got out on accident. i mean it was an accident and the guy had to get off the seat to tell her a law that she already knows. i mean they rid the city of stray animals but thats their job. they are trained to "control animals" or whatever but i feel they dont like their job. jerks! i raise my fist at them. seriously if they stopped me and gave me a lecture b/c the one day my dog gets out the "animal control" comes. it sucks.
thats about it.
its comforting know that i have friends in far away places. it kinda makes the big world smaller and damnit thats a good feeling.

i am very envious of people with friends.

it was b/c of this song i cried

"i will wait for you" preformed by connie francis

If it takes forever, I will wait for you
For a thousand summers, I will wait for you
'til you're back beside me, 'til I'm holding you
'til I hear you sigh here in my arms

Any where you run to, any where you go
Every day remember, how I love you so
In your heart believe what in my heart I know
that forever more I'll wait for you

The clock will tick away the hours one by one
And then the time will come when all the waiting's done
the time when you return and find me here and run
Straight to my waiting arms

If it takes forever, I will wait for you
For a thousand summers, I will wait for you
'til you're here beside me, 'til I'm touching you
and forever more cherish your love

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do you know how fucking excited i am. you have no fucking idea! holy shit this mean i get to actually volunteer and stuff. ahhh im so happy. its not till august of next year but hell im going to sort of be in the area. all i need is a car. who cares that a whole year i have a whole year to be looking forward to this and i am one stoked mofo again i say you have no fucking idea how happy i am.
also earlier today i woke up insanly early to hear the almost acoustic xmas line up. saturday is ok the used is playing but sunday i almost pissed in my pjs. first coldplay is playing so is jack jonhson so are the vines,and beck with the flaming lips. holy shit thats pretty good for a sunday show. creed is playing too sadly. bah but im really excited and looking forward to august. ah thats about it. i didnt do much. my room is seriously warm so i had to read outside my room. i cleaned the bathroom with an old toothbrush. it was so hot in the bathroom too. today was not as hot as yesterday though but it was still hot. too hot for oxnard. hey thats a good porno title or some kind of video displaying licentious behavior whilst one is inebriated.
my mom noticed how excited i get for anything and everything and how lots of people are my heros. i thought that was funny you what else is funny. when you dad doesnt know how to spell you name and he was the one that made it up even the spelling.

walking home today from babysitting i looked up and saw stars and a really bright moon. it was like summer, but in the fall. it was really nice.
babysat today. tomorrow is going to be a nothing day. i think i might go down to the wherehouse and peruse the cds in search of cheap cds and buy some tickets. woo! this time im not waiting. im going to go put and but them myself, right charice? seriously im not going to wait until the sell out. holy fuck was it nice day to go to the beach. but i didnt. my mom was not into going outside on a hot day so i stayed inside. it was nice inside but not in my room i woke up sweating. geeze i had to open my door opening the window didnt help at all it made things worse. anyways im not the only crazy that cried b/c if the futurama episode. there are lots of people who share the same experience. reading though all the reviews a lot of people had problems holding back tears but it was a great episode. i guess the part the made it sad was the dogs loyalty till the end.
i went to the library. the lady told my brohter and i to "quiet down" or whatever. it was really dumb b/c there were other people who were louder than us. i was going to start screaming "THIS IS MY QUIET VOICE" then go on the explain that i have no control of the volume of my voice and then scream at my brother to be quiet. ah i can only dream.

stephanie: really?...ok...seriously now...how it is?
me: boring
me: lonely

its hard to wake up in the morning knowing that the highlight of your day is going to be calling old people or walking oilis in the afternoon. everyday looking forward to something that probably is not going to happen. its fun you should try it....not really.

"Lonely Day" by phantom planet

I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was going to be a lonely lonely
lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can't
go back to bed
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to leave
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day
Everybody knows that something's wrong
But nobody knows what's going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shaping up to be a lonely day
I could tell from the minute I woke up it was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day

yesterday i had this whole thing written up about my day yesterday and how i saw a rocker from the 80s my day at work and the people at work. but no my computer did something stupid and it was gone so i decided not to type again b/c i put effort and it was late and i was tired. anyways yesterday in my mom s car some guy in a purple car and loud 80s hair rock blaring. i look over at the car and i see this guy in a quazi mullet bobboing his head to to music. it was so funny. i was laughung but my mom was not to amused. she said something like if she had the chance she would love to live in the 70s. i dont know but it was still pretty funny to me.
today work wne t by pretty fast. i call people and i normally dint finish till late 7 o clock and then the rest of the night i do run postings. its pretty easy. then i come home. tomorrow i babysit. oh yeah i was invited to the company xmas party. the funny thing is that im babysitting on that saturday for a person that is going to that party.
im never watching futurama again. i say that so many times but come sunday at 7 im watching tv and here i am watching futurama. sundays episode made me cry. it was about fry's dog and how he wanted to clone it to bring it back to life but he decied not to b/c he found out that his dog lived 15 years thats 12 years after he was frozen. they would cut to scenes with fry and his dog and stuff. when fry decide to not clone his dog b/c he said that he lived a full life they cut to the past and there was his dog sitting out side waiting for fry like he told him to the day he was frozen. for 12 years the dog sat out there. i dont know but it made me cry. the were playing sad music too. i was so sad. it was a cartoon and carttons dint make me cry butt there was something about this one that made me get all emotional. i guess b/c i have a dog. yeah if it ever repeats watch it b/c its soo good. that episode is up there with the one about fry's brother and then they played the simple minds song dont you forget about me. ah soo good.
i drove today too. i went to albersons to to make a copy but the machine was out of order. i saw walter there. so i journey to savons to make a copy. thats it.

oh yeah so lets ggo back to friday. i went bowling at the base. i hate going to that alley and i avoid it at all times.it sucks they dont paly good music. so many time i want to go there and just habd them a mix cd and let htem play it. i bet if they play that cd they have higher attendance. anyways i went to church today. that was about it. i was going to buy my very own dvd player but my sisiter went out and my mom woulnt let me drive to best buy to go out and get one. boo. oh man i dont feel good. i ate a lot of butter with breat and sugar and i do not feel healthy. the bread part was nice but not the butter and sugar. my dog right now is getting pissed at a barn owl that hangs out around my house. its pretty rad. i have yet to see it but it is stil rad. like last night i had my stereo on, not too loud, and i could hear it hooting. its cool. i wanted to go out and look but it was like 2:30 in the morning. not feeling 100% seriously i want to puke. never eating butter again! maybe two weeks.

i went to the mall today. it was crowded but not as crowded. i found my deam sweater and im going to buy it. oh yes i will and maybe a new bag. maybe. anyways im babysat today. next week i go back to work on monday and tuesday and then babysit on wednesday. then i will have enough money to start a bank account so i can cash out my pay checks.
funny memory: the way i learned how to add and subtract was not by using counters or by watching sesame street i learned by playing blackjack. i would bet a certain amount of marshmallows or what ever food i had that day and bet with my grandpa. i could say i learned how to gamble before i learned how to add and subtract.and thats my funny memory.