you how i said i need a job well im babysitting two days a week thursday and saturday. time im not too sure about. but anyways in one month ill at least have $80. im babysitting for 3 hours today and all i get is $10,. im say at least 15 but beggar never choose she was so nice and i didnt want to negotiate like 5 dollars an hour. i dont really care as long as i get money for me to save im a happy camper. and there is an open fridge policy. so im like free other peoles food, ok. i saw charisse at the commassary. i gave her my tape i made. i hope she likes it. then i saw a bunch of people i go to church with. the older members. it was a really confusing weekend for me. my sister comes home from mountain view and then my sister has appendicitis and cant leave the hospital just yet b/c of fever. i wish the dvd player on my computer worked b/c my sister got cq on dvd and i want to see it.

my sister is going to the emergency room. they just left. she had bad stomach pains. so ill be up all night. watching tv to pass the time. not like i do that anyways but who can sleep. the last time i remember the emergency room or an incident that required a emergeny room my grampa was weezing badly. i dont really want to remember that but yeah. it was the start for all his problems b/c of the 13 years or more years of chain smoking. im kinda scared b/c i hate the hospital. thats why i cant become a doctor. my fear of just the hospital. i dont like how it is cold. that and i have a fear of getting lost in one. liek i cant find my way back to my room if i go out for a walk. you know.
the beginning of my day was mundane as it always is. i finally got my transcript from the school. i also finally finished charisses mixtape. yeah. i went to albersons and made the photo cpoies. i ran into crystal teran and michelle mooney and bobby dont remember the last name. sorry. it was nice seeing people that i havent seen in a while. and then my mom tells me to get a job b/c yeah thinking about it i do need one. must get job to not be bored.

september 11th. its been one year and its all over the tv. like there was nothing to watch b/c it was coverage all over the tv. so i watch much music all day and i switched back to mtv of course that was all after thunderbirds. tomorrow i am going to pick up my offical transcript from the school. finally. im going to send it away and hopefully waiting by the mailbox. ah i hate that but oh well. im hopeful. then i go home watch the wedding singer and then more music videos then while you were sleeping. nothing more. i did go to the store today. there was nothing that i saw that i wanted so it was a useless trip. nothing else.

im kinda pissed. my sister calls me upstairs to tell me to throw out the trash. im like yeah i dont use that toilet. and she like were you waiting for the weekend till i throw it out. im like i use the one near the door but not that one by the toilet. that and the trash can is outside for pickup. and i was going to do it first thing tomorrow morning. i was pissed. i was like fuck you! (in my head) errr....just cause she has a job she doesnt have the time to throw out a plastic bag. im home all day. yeah im watching tv all day. err....she irratates me sometimes. like once a month i would clean the restroom, like the whole room but ive decided to clean only my side of the restroom. my side of the mirror and my side of the counter. and if she asks me to clean the restroom i wont do it b/c my side is clean. haha.
im watching the justin timberlake video and the director stloe the ideo of the 7 11 thing from an x games commercial. like tony hawk eric koston and bucky lasek carey hart tommy clowers etc are haing out niking skating and stuff. kinda sad.

nothing. im watching a sex show right now. explicit and educational. very nice

nothing special hap.pened. i woke up watched the thunderbirds ate danced around the house went to the school called the school then did nothing. the school still doesnt have my sat I scores in so they told me to call. hey it saves gas and i called. she was really helpful and it was cool so hopefull ill be sending my transcript away soon and im hoping that my money was sent there. b/c i havent gotten any confirmation about it and i really want to know. if it didnt go through i dont know what ill do.

all i can say is that i realy didnt get the full sleep that i desire. on friday i went to sleep at around 2am. i knew that i would be going to see natalie off and then i would get to washing my sisters car someday like sunday. but i didnt. on the 7th i was kinda awake b/c everyone decided to have a party outside my door. it was my sisters bday. but yeah it was loud and i was kinda pissed and sort of awake at 10am. then to piss me off more she comes into my room and says "could you wash my car at 11 b/c i leaving at 12. so im like ok. i lay in bed the get up at around 10:30 and get dressed in my wash the car clothes do my normal morning thing and then see my sister talking to my other sister on the phone. im walking down the stairs and then shes like oh you dint have to wash my car now im loeabing now. im like fuck you! you go into my room wake me up and tell me to wash your car at 11 then your plans change and you dont tell me that i dont have to wash your car anymore! im already up and ready you could have at least gave me a few moe hours sleep. fuck! then shes like, sorry i didnt want to wake you. i was already up thanks. so then she leaves the car and pays me to wash her car so i do. i was still tired.then charisse comes and then we go to natalies and say good bay then i go to charisses house. it was her bday party and it was a intimate gathering of close friends. it was fun just watching the sorority life. we just sat around and watched tv for the longest time. and ate lots of good food. i was not so tired b/c of all the good company. then i go home to find that my sister wasn not home. so i had to stay up till around 130. i was really tired and then i dont go to sleep till around 2. today i got up at around 7 b/c of church. so im up and getting ready and my sister who has had more sleep than me this weekend was sleeping. i was mad b/c we had went to sleep at around the same time. i mean she was walking around but i make every effort to wake up every sunday to go to church. no matter how early it is. im tried right now and i havent had a nap. at the exchange this asian guy i mena he was cool dressed but he was looking at import car magazines so not so cool he was filipino yeah. i was reading the vines article. my back was towards the magazines. he like "bumps" into me pushing me into the shelf. so he leaves and them my dad tells me to leave and find my mom. i find them looking at rash guards and then i see the guy follwoing me. im like whatever. the rashguards are in the fitness/ sports section. he like looks around at the protein pills and stuff and like glances over at me. im gross and give him a rondom look of pain. then i leave the store with weird feeling. when we got home she was awake on the computer dressed. she had a date. yeah and then she talks and talks. yada yada. anyways, she leaves and then i go to best buy with my brother and then the tshirt wherehouse. i got the coolest shirt that says: bowsers for bush 1992. its so great it shoots me in the leg with a cap gun! in best buy i see jesus and and my cute boy that works there. i think hes the boy that used to work at albersons a while ago. i saw him working and i was talking to jesus and he passed by like 4 time. i know he was working and that was part of his job but he smiled at me everytime and said a faint hello. im like woo hoo! then there was this other guy that was with his dad that wa pretty cute. we like made eye contact lots of times. ah it was great. ah good times at the best buy. jesus and i talked for a while about pretty much everything and how his brother is paying for concerts for him and they are over $50 each. im like what? then i go home and my sister is napping! ah! i didnt have a nap today and i had less sleep than she did. i was busy making charisses mixtape. i was up all day, doing something productive. pish-shaw. and she up now b/c she cant sleep. bah! i was supposed to move in with her. if im pissed now imagine me and my sister living together. i think i would have no hair.
im am so jealous of meg white. for some reason all the guys like her. the lead singer of the vines craig, he wants to marry her. i dont know if he is being serious b/c hes high most of the time. i reccommend reading it. it is funny. like they ask him if he is in love and he says yeah i fallin love like thirty times a day. i love tony hawk. i love coca cola. i thought that was great.