Never teach a pig to sing, it wastes your time and annoys the pig.- Adam, Langham

recently i found out that my grandmother was going to marry a white guy. but her parents did not agree and so she married my grandfather. the world would be different if she married the other guy. i wounder if my grandmother ever wonders what the world would be like if she married him. i probably would not have been born. its weird b/c i would have never imagined that kind of thing happens in my family. but it turns out it does. like my grandfater is half spanish. i found that out like 2 years ago and that my real middle name is dela cruz not just cruz. my mom told me that she was majoring in marketing in college. whoa! i dont knwo these things. the newest family fact is that my sister is the first one in my family to have tatoo both sides! funny b/c ill be the first to have stretced out ear holes. at least im not having babies!
when will i ever make sense?
i dont i noticed that i say im going to do things but i never follow through. like im going to call the school. dont do it. eh oh well im eventually going to do it next week. i try to go with my mom to the store but she never asks me anymore. i feel bored. i woke up at 11ish so i could go with my mom but no she doesnt bother to ask me anymore. so i dont bother to ask if i an go. my mom goes a lot of places without me. it bugs too b/c she doesnt ask. that and she didnt buy me gummybears! im the only one home and she doesnt ask me to go anywhere or to drive. she said that one day ill be drving but not now. she told me this b/c i wanted to drive my brother to the movies but no my brother decided not to and my dad said that he did want to see xxx anymore. boo! i just wanted to see the first 15 minutes and then im happy. but no i didnt. my brother went to his friends house and my sister ate out. so i was left at home watching a live preformance of santana on a&e. it was not bad its just the fact that i was at home with my parents that was killing me. my older sister and my younger brother were out today. i didnt go anywhere but around my neighborhood when i walk yolis. how social. yeah i think everyone was at the homecoming game or they had something better to do and just didnt bother to include me. im a bored soul. really. like today i was going to walk over to del taco and get a buritto but i didnt b/c i didnt want to walk. so instead i made a grill cheese sandwich and ate chips and salsa for lunch. it was quite good actually. to top it off i had some orange juice. whoo ha! it was a magical lunch. and then my mom bought me some pineapples...soo good. i love pinapples.

it was a nice sunny day. and i didnt go to the movie b/c my brother HAD to get an award. he was probably one of the coolest guys there. he wore a peach button up with a black tie. he was the sharpeset dressed guy there in my opinion. i didnt even have to go to see. yeah i didnt go to the movies to see blue crush. on well there is always next thursday? yeah i guess so. there is nothing on today so it made today kinda unbearable. so i ran. it was a really boring. i ended up watching about 2 straight hours of vh1. how bad is that. yes it is really bad. i caught the last hour of the fashion awards and this thing on liza and davids wedding and theis thing on the red carpet. the fashion show thing had a lot of faint music in it. it was just another boring day of eizelle. as it is everyday. i really need to get out. this is becoming unhealthy. ahhh sigh. i still have a lot to do and i havent really started. i keep on telling myself that i need to to this i need to do that, but i dont do it. i hate that. err... i need to start now! im so tired of being bored. i need something new. like this new job i think i might get is something new and im pumped. i want to do stuff. its a SCAT job in the main office so thats a good start i guess. my hands are getting cold. i want some gummybears right now. i think ill ask my mom to get me some tomorrow. i just had some cheese and crackers and im really happy.
i was watching off centre. it was the first time see i never watch that show. anyways they were telling stories of their first times and such and they concluded that the first time was just sex nothing special. is that all it is? where is the romance? that show made me think kinda. not really but it was an interesting thought

i baby sat today. they are good everyday i babysit them. their mom is even hooking me up wiht a real job. its only 8-12 hours a week so it all works out. i can keep my tuition thingy b/c i will be well under the poverty level. its a data entry job so im assuming a computer, fuck i burned my tounge drinking apple cider right now. boo! ah but it was good. i sent out my intent to enroll to long beach. im still looking for an apartment and i still have to do a majority of thing on my list befroe i can sit back. i have to make several phone calls and send away things, and take tests blah stuff. the normal. tomorrow im going to see blue crush on the base theater and then maybe go bike riding walk yolis and then jump rope. i feel out of shape and i hate that feeling. i have to go and be a producitve citizen, im really glad that i might get a job and get some extra money for school and stuff that i want. like shoes and cds and stuff. my knees is hurting again. i thinkit only hurts in the cold weather. stupid arthritis. its so annoying. i saw the grinch who stole christmas today at the kids house. its a cute movie. i also watched some wallace grommit movies, tomorrow i guess ill watch salute your shorts. i want it to rain here. its cloudy and i say if its cloudy there must be rain. i also want a car no i need a car. i need a car to commute in and out of the city. how do you think im going to go to shows in college? and i have to go home here and there. ah it sucks knowing you can drive but you dont have a car. i want to see bowling for columbine.

i woke up at 7am to see the today show. robert earl did not come till 9:50am. i watched the whole show but it was worth it. rick thore was one there witth him too so it made it all the better. two of the people that i look up to on the same show at the same time. it was so cool the only thing was that he got cut off b.c the show had to end. boo! then i went to sleep and woke up at 12 like i do everyday. i thought i was going to go to the post office today but i didnt b/c i was too scared to ask my mom if i can drive there myself. sigh, so tomorrow my mom will send it off. then i have to steal a stamp from my sister and see if she notices. i also went to stephanies house for her birthday. that was fun just sitting around and watching tv and making fun of the real world and fm nation. fun times. stephanie had some subway sandwiches there so i was a happy camper. i ate too much.

so it gonna be the giants and the angels. finally two teams from california. it feels so good. im supporting the angels. im not a fan of the angels im a fan of the dodgers.
yesterday was like this: church and then i went to the exchange i wanted to buy some stuff but i figured i needed to save my money so i didnt buy anything. i noticed that there are no more teenagers at my chruch. they all went to college or they dont go to my church anymore. it upsets me b/c my mom wants to leave and go to some otherr church. i didnt want to. i guess its like selling out. true my church may have died down with the leaving for some chaplains, its still a church that has been there for me. leaving will only make thing worst for them. it kinda pisses me off b/c the people who went on the rafting trip dont even go to the church anymore or i dont see them as much. then i went home. my sister left for the barnes. i should have gone b/c i had a free capaccino. then my brother left for the best buy to help a friend with a computer. i stayed home and walked yolis with my mom and dad. it was serid my dog never barks at anyone but he barked at thei blind guy. i felt soo bad. i figured he barked at him b/c he had a cane in his hand and yolis just got all defensive. then my mom and dad stayed up on sunday so i watched what i normally watch is jackass and reruns of the osbournes. my mom and dad wer not amuzed by jackass. they found some of the stuff funny but boy was that akward.then they went to sleep and i watched the osbournes in peace.oh yeah i really want to see the jackass movie.
today my dad was home. i was a awakend relly early b/c my mom decide to play her song that i burned her really loud and since my bed is right under the speaker system i heard everything. then i went back to sleep an wokr up at 12 like i normally do every day. but thats going to change tomorrow. you see robert earl is going to be on the today show tomorrw and i HAVE to see it. you dont understand how much that man is one of my heros. hes just so cool and that book that he wrote is awesome. so good thing conan is a repeat or else i would be in trouble. tomorrow i have to mail of a rebate, a letter to charice, and a intent to enroll. then later this month i have to call about tests that i have to take and then i have to call the grant people and the school. then i have to call alexis whitehead to see if she can help me with the living situation.so thats pretty much the plan. then on thursday im going to see blue crush finally. i walked today. it was super chilly so i ran most of the way to stay warm. i also saw my cute neighbor. he works for a bike companty that makes movies and such. oh man he lives around the corner from my street.. thats two in the same area. its actually quite funny but my dog shits on hte same lawn everyday. its so funny b/c i know where to stop and what trash can to go to to throw it away. good deal. my dog is cool like that. and i think there is a barn owl that hangs out in my neighborhood. its cool b/c i can hear it and it sounds big. but my dog gets so pissed at it. i guess b/c he cant see it. it was cold today that i had to bust out with the thermal under the shirt. i also had an ice cream shake which is basically ice cream in a tall mixing glass with milk shaken up. usually i use strawberry bryers ice cream which is really good i must say. but my mom bought dryers strawberry ice cream istead. i was in outrage! i tryed it in a shake and it did not have the same realness to it. the dryeres tasted like yogert but sweeter and fake tasting. bryers has this realness like it was home made for me. next time my mom buys fake ice cream again im going to go into a frenzy.

today i got a set of 100 cds for $5.99 well it was really $19.99 but i got a $14.99 rebate so i got a good deal i guess. im looking at them right now it makes me tear. anyways i have some money and today i was about to buy a sweater a red one. but then i thought, i have a red sweater so i didnt get it. i figured i need a black sweater instead of a red one so i saved my money. at sports challet i saw many things that i wanted to get. like a bag, some shirts, and some sandals. then i said to myself that i need a job. but who hires for only 18-20 hours a week? bummer hopefully there is a cool part time job waiting for me in long beach. i have to do some many things for school. i have to take tests, mail my intent to enroll, find classes, go to some building and get my tution thing squared away, call about my financial aid, apartment blah blah blah. so much to do. so little time. the thing is that i have to do all this business on tuesday b/c of a stupid holiday. they say that i have to take the placement tests in october, dude thats now. then i got a letter from charisse. it was cool i got a cool sticker too. (dont worry i wrote back) the angels won today woo ha! im a bigger dodger fan but the angels are close enough.
i didnt get my fish and chips today i wa upset but i did get some good garlic bread at the house that i babysit at. yum yum. the kids were tired by the time i got there so it was a really easy day. i saw some dismissed and stuff iron chef. when i got home i listened to the rock revolution and then iim on the computer. i got a new box today and i still have mmusa so im a happy camper.
i saw strictly ballroom today. oh man it is such a good movie. i love it. i also have a free starz movie preview so its all about the fast and the furious this weekend. yes i still have not seen that movie yet i am proud.