i had probably one of the coolest dreams to date. it was yesterday and since i have nothing else to talk about oh wait, i made a cool pillow case. ok the dream. it was in my neighborhood.i went over to the middle house in the cul de sac. the nice white one. i went over to baby sit. it was normal. but then the doorbell rang and it was her cousin. the cute one that i had a crush on. yeah normally we dont talk but in my dream we were in conversation. we were outside talking and stuff. then i realized that the next door neighbor was a house that had band in it. i think the starting line and finch were in my dream and some other drive thru bands and a bunch other bands. anyways i started skating on a longboard and then it became a block bbq like the old days. it wasw so fun. i was on a longboard talking to the cute boy and having fun with my neighbors. then i woke up.

today was like every other day. mundane. but people are leaving tomorrow and the coming week. ah its gonna be hard. knowing that people are gone. friends especially. its really hard. that and i didnt get to say goodbye to many of my friends.im sad b/c i didnt get to. maybe ill see them on thanksgiving. thats gonna be a long time. im trying to save my money . im getting paid $15 dollars now instead of $10. i was so suprised and happy. i didnt really expect much. so im getting $30 a week. im saving up for stuff. i guess you can say a rainy day. that and a cookbook by robert earl. or maybe a show coming up or something. or to strech out my ears. what ever comes first. i baby sat today. the kids or cool. they watch movies and eat its all good. the little boy john, passed out on the couch the girls took a while to fall asleep but they did. they are not that hard to take care of. its all good. im have popcorn kernels in my throat. i forgot how much i hate popcorn b/c of the kernels. bah!
IM GONNA MISS SO MANY PEOPLE, i feel so alone.

my dad never is home so when he does he makes funny obsevations like "you dont do anything all day!?" yes. i dont do anything all day and my ass is getting big. but i still fit in my pants. ha ha.anyways i was supposed to pick up my brother but they came home early. apparently it is expensive to be sick. if my sister were to pay the whole thing it would come out to be around $21,000 for 5 days stay, food, surgery and room. thats like a car. so i must not get sick and go to the hospital. its too expensive. i went to charisses house and hung out with linda and lisa. it was funy just sitting around and eating food and watching tv. then we left then i realized that i left the vines poster in charisses room. but i didnt forget the cool marker. thanks charisse. and i got my skirt back, thanks linda. im at home with a tummy ache. im fine though.yeah. im feeling a little crafty so i think im gonna work on my scrapbook.

my mom found out that my sister got a tatoo this weekend. and she like why is it so ugly? she could have gotten a butterfly or a tweety bird on her ankel? you know. then she says that she stupid b/c she could get diseases and stuff. yeah only if the needle is drity or someone else used it or whatever. i really wanted to get out of the house but no. i dont think she would let me use the car. she was really annoying, more annoying that normal. ah i really need to get out of the house. i really dont remember the last time i got out for a while. i do go out but its either to the store real fast or some short erand. arg...i wanna go somewhere. and then i realized that people are leaving for school soon. *sigh* i saw revenge of the nerds today. it is probably one of the greatest movies. really. i dot do much but shower, sleep, eat, and watch tv. my dad made a really good observation today, i dont change out of my pjs. i dont b.c i dont do anything and it makes me feel like more of a slacker. ah im tired of doing nothing.

i love expresso. love love love. without it i probably would have passed out in the elevator. i stayed with my sister last night in the hospital. it was probably the most uncomfortable sleep i have ever had. EVER! first i got to lie down on the vynil couch that makes noise and realized that it smelled of band-aids. so did the blanket the hospital gave me. everything in the hospital smells like band aide.it was giving me a head ache. it took me a while to get to sleep but when i did the I V machine decided to beep b/c there was no more I V. so i got up and went to the restroom and then i got the nurse. b/c who can sleep with a beeping noise for an I V machine? then i went back to sleep and was awkwardly awakened by a nurse drawing blood from my sister and talking loud. i couldnt go back to sleep b/c people were walking in and out ouf the room. i tried but no luck. i porbably had about 4 hours of sleep. when my mom came the doctor came, and said that my sister could go. finally! my mom dragged me all over the hospital looking for paper work. and i was sleeping the the elevator, the chairs that i sat on and by the windows. sio my mom gave me money ro get a coffee so i got the expresso and it was what i needed. i had enough energy to go the rest of the day. ah. im ready to go to sleep. kinda. the vynil couch was sticking to my skin too. like at times my back and my arm. i had to peel my body off the couch and that was gross. then we finally got home and i watched tv. ah time to be home.

it was not bad at all. they were really good kids. anna and john. the other one was sleeping. anyways they watch movies on saturday and so we were watching movies and playing games. and eating ice cream. yum. apparently kids make up rules for the games so that they win all the time. we were playing the thomas the tank engine game and she was playing with rules that i think she made up. it was cute. then john likes dinosaurs and we watched dinosaur the movie. then the sailor moon movie. jonh passed out and he was kinda mad at me for telling him to go to sleep in his bed b/c it was a lot comfortable. and i had to talk to him but it and he fell alseep in his bed. anna fell asleep in front of the tv and i didnt want to bother her so i watched the salior moon movie. but then the parentals came home. it was an overall good night and the kids were really easy to babysit and easy to get along with.
i jusy saw probably one of the most disturbing thing ever. it was a 2 cd compilation of kids like actual kids singing sexually driven pop songs. songs like girlfriend by nsync. its really sad. if you ever see the commercial...i....i....watch it b/c it is sad.