adventures in babysitting thats what i call it. today was really really easy only one kid was awake. and she was so sweet and nice all we did was a puzzle ate ice cream and then looked at buses. then she fell asleep and then i watched tv. no big adventure. oh well. today was a really pretty day. you know how its too pretty to be a saturday it had to be sunday? well thats how it felt. it wa a beautiful day. i wanted to take yoils out to the beach to walk but my mom woulndt let me use the car. oh well. i was watching tv and took a nap and then i ate some zucchinni however you do not know how much i regret eating as many as i did. i think it gave me massive gas and ive been farting so much today. the only thing i remember eating different was the zucchinni. yeah farts! they dont smell though (not that i know of) hahaha suck to be my brother. hahaha. anyways im really really happy that i didnt end up going to the NFG show. a lot of people are saying that its crowded and there are lots of girls all over something coporate. ive seen three out of the four bands too many times this year so its all good.
the yankees are so out of the series. thanks to the angels kicking their yankee ass! oh poor jason giambi go home crying. derk jeter oh too bad no more world sceries this year. i really dont care for the yankees. ahaha go angels. normally im a big doger fan but they didtn make it and im really proud of the orange county boys. and i need someone to cheer for. the arizona diamondbacks were swept by st louis of all teams. oh well go oakland. go san fransico. actually no dont go san fransico. you beat the dogers in the race for the wild card. so yeah.
im watching snl right now. great show great. i missed it all summer. now its back and i feel complete. oh yeah i read this business book my dad got from work it had some pretty interseting tips. like dont eat garlic for lunch and to bring toothpaste and a toohbrush to work and keep it in your desk. i also saw where the heart is with my dad. yea where the heart is and my dad. it was actually qquite funny. he kept onm changing it to baseball but he put it back to the movie. it was really nice.

today i woke up earlier than normal to go with my mom to the store but she didnt ask me even though she well knew i was awake. she didnt bother to ask. i was upset so i went back to sleep while listening to the starting line. i fell asleep around cheek to cheek and then i woke up at the end of the cd to turn off the cd player then i went back to sleep. i went downstais watched tv walk yolis and then watched more tv. i have to say i hate walking on second street. all these creepy looking guys giving me gross looks like they have never seen a girl in boardshorts before. come on people its only boardshorts. maybe they are looking at the dog i just dont know. i was kinda mad at my parents b/c i dont think they will let me drive the car anymore. what im saying is that the less practice i have with the car the more likely ill crash the car. but i dont think ill crash any time soon im a good driver. knock on wood. ha i need a car and cds but i dont want to get into that. oh man the angels game was sweet! it was so great. i dont know but baseball maybe slow, but its always a good game when the team you are rooting for wins. my dada told me to go to ventura college. i was upset b/c hes like did you get anything from long beach? im like no. i thought he was going to say like oh when will you hear from them? no hes like well maybe you should just go to ventura college and then work from there. i have no real intrest in going to ventura and i would rather work my way through college in costa mesa then spend two years of my life in ventura college. no offense to those in ventura college. ventura college is a great palce for education and all those who go there...cheers...awkward silence.
i saw blind date for the first time. it was weird b/c i never watch and the day i watch is the day that Malcolm McCassy is on. you may be looking at me like who the hell is this guy. hes a friend of travis pastrana. you may be looking at me like who the hell is this guy. but yeah hes a motocross fmx, supercross blah.thats where the 199 in krustrykrab199 comes from its his riding number. yeah Malcolm McCassy is a no fear scout and wass or is a supercross rider i believe and has the job i really want that and hes super hot! anyways he was on blind date. i looked at the tv and was oh man thats travis's cute friend! he was fuuny but the girl was not feeling him at all. it was so funny. but it was just by chance that i see it.

(thats malcolm pictured above)
i saw one of my favorite movies of all time today, biloxi blues

there is a can of sweetened condensed milk mocking me asking to be opened and eated with crackers. i must resist. crackers yum honey yum, sweetened condensed milk is the d-e-v-i-l

i love honey and crackers together they make the best treat. stop looking at me we ran out of food again and tomorrow is grocery day.

today was babysitting night. but thats going to change. its moving to wednesday night. im thinking this is great b/c thursday is must see tv. its bad that i love the change in my schedule b/c of weekly tv programming. its a sad life i live. really today i woke up to a beautiful blazing sun and said i want to be in los angeles today. days like this remind me of the days of back when life was simple. go to school make fun of teachers, high school. but now for me life had gotten complicated. i dont do anything and it forces me to look back and live more in the past than i want to. i really want to get out of the past b/c at times i find myself thinking about it. like when i saw the sign by ace of base comes on i reminded of good times of singing in the car with friends. like while everyone else has moved on i fear that ill be the one left in the past. even thought i proceed into the future like everyone else does im still here like you left me. the only thing that has changed is that i know lots of useless thunderbird triva than one should know and i can make one mean ahi poke. yeah im that bored. i was watching fm nation on mtv today and it remeinded me of times when we would just drive around whit the radio and sing along. i think the only way to solve this slump of mine is to get a car. im scared to drive my moms b.c its her car not mine. if i only had a car to go places. the other solution to my slump is that i still have a stupid curfew. im waht 18 now and all growns up and i stil have to be in the house by stupid 11pm. i feel like im not old enought to do many things. i think that if i was offered the job of my dreams to travel around the world or just the united states as a tour journalist or whatever they wouldnt let me do it. like i would have to go to school. times like this i wish i was cameron crowe. he got to work of rolling stone and made a movie about it. i wish i could say stuff like when i was fifteen i was lliving out of a tour bus eating bread and water having the time of my life. but no i can say that when i was fifteen, i was in a biology lab honors class. i need to go out and grow b/c the only way i get out of the house is to walk the dog, sure i feel better about myself but i need to meet more people. llike i had a genius plan to try to sneak into the ventura theater but i dont think those plans will follow through b/c i dont have a car. oh well.
knowing that i live in a kick ass neighborhood makes me happy. today my across the street neighbor come over to borrow $2 from my mom and promises to give it back. i just thought it was cool that as neighbors we can trust each other to borrow money. even if it is $2. then while i was walking, my corner neighbor connie waves at me outside of the cul de sac. i felt so known.
at babysitting the dad called so the kida wanted to talk to him. so i give it to john the little boy and hes ltalking and then he was about to give the phone to his sister and then he said "oh yeah i wuv you dad" and then he kissses the phone. i was about to cry. kids like that make me want to have kids.it was so sweet and he did it again when his dad called again later that night.
go angels!

so i was watching the west wing b/c jesus was on it but i didnt see him but i was still excited for him b/c he was a part of a national show. then he tells me that he got paid $137 b/c he was on the show the thing is his face wasnt even on the tv. im kinda upset b/c robert earl isnt going to southern california for a book signing. i really really want to shak his hand and say good job on one of the best cook books that i have ever read. hes going to be on the today show and montel so ill be up ill make sure i wake up early to see this. as you can tell i dont really have anything to talk about....wait i just remembered. i was walking yolis today and these guysin a van whistled at me. me being the proper lady gave them the finger. they stopped and i proceeded to run for fear of my life. but then it was a stop sign so the fear went away. i know they saw it too b/c i did it right in front of them. i so wanted to kick them in the balls. they were so ugly and gross. eck..ok over it. i was thinking, yes nothing. i was really pissed today b/c all my life i was led to believe that tomatos at the store are fresh. today i learned that they pick tomatos at their breaking point. they are still green and not ripe. then they are put in a room with a "ripening agent" in reality they make the tomato red. therefore they have no flavor. i always kenw that store tomatoes never had the quality of vine ripe. now i know. its sad really. damn hiccups. i took a shower at a really odd time. like a 4pm. then i watched sabrina the teenage witch then eliminadate. now im here. reading the book again. i know. i love it.

tomorrow babysitting. it gets really sad when the highlight of my entire week is babysitting. i should go place b/c i can drive but i dont bother to ask b/c i have nowhere to go. so i walk my dog yolis. and get whistles from creepy guys. good thing its my neighboorhood. i feel safer. a lot safer.

bored as hell! its the same routine i wake up,eat,watch tv, run, rest watch tv in my room, go downstais watch even more tv then i sleep. sad yes but its the sad truth. i wake up in the morning knowing whats going to happen. if it werent for my babysitting job life would be so boring that i would probably start hugging trees. im saved everyday when i retreat to my dreams. they keep me company.

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back im getting hungry so i made cheese and crackers.
today i realized that i love seafood. like i love saefood. tuna (yellow fin) or in a can, salmon, halabit, all that good stuff. ah i love seafood. i really want a fish taco right now. but i have to settle for cheese and crackers. did i tell you how much i love xtreme cuisine? b/cog this book i learned how to spell cuisine.

i had a stupid moment: i was rewinding something in the rewinder someone ims me and so i leave and close the little glass door in the entertainment system. its like a little cubby in the tv with doors. i close the one door and go to the computer. i go to stop it by reaching my hand in the cubby. and i cant get my hand through the glass door! im like trying get my hand thriugh for liek 10 seconds and then i remember that the door is still closed. i was looking at it too. like why wont my hand go through?

i want to be productive. i try to be. i walk the dog every weekday and i rest on the weekend. i want to be a lot more producitve. its not fun watching your brain fall out of your ears. and then trying to pick up the missing piecies as i try to help my brother with his chemistry. i need a job but then i would feel bad if i worked and my free tuition is taken away. i would cry. then work my ass off. ah. so i dont want to do that. i need to feel productive. i dont think i can drive the car anytime soon b/c my mom found out that the curb at the tshirt wherehouse hit me. or i was driving too fast to the curb and it hit the bottom of my car. not really the curb the thing that helps you one the driveway yeah that thing was the thing that hit my moms car. it wasnt anything big my mom noticed it when she was washing the car. the insident happend like a month ago so judging by the time it was nothing big at all. haha. todays thunderbirds was so good. so so good. im like wow. oh yeah jonny moseley was on road rules. i was about to pee my pants. i wish i was there.

i wish i had a digital camera that worked or a web cam. it would be so nice and funny.

its fun just sitting down and watching tv for like 6 hours. and it was all of alias. i was curious so i sat down and pretty much watched them all. then i watched the making of the jackass movie. and now i want to see this movie. im very curious and the fact that spike jonze is in it makes me smile. that and bam margera is in it too. after reading the book xtreme cuisine, i fully reccommend with the scouts honor that the book is awesome. it has really really easy meals to cook, tips for ettiquette, and alternative ways to cook like on the manifold of a car and the dishwasher. also tips to wax your surfboard and not to look stupid o the beach. they all look super good and super easy. great for anyone in college. this book is going to help me out so much. i love this book.

oh yeah while i was at borders i saw luis. and we talked about how school is and stuff. and i saw candace keck from swimming.

ahhh.....im poor. but who the hell cares. i got my book three days before the release date. woooo! im so happy im was just the happiest camper in the world. i got my book. i have no money but by the end of this week i will hopefully have $60 good enough for some cool stuff. like this jacket i saw at old navy. i said that if by the end of two weeks if my jacket is still there in the same color and same size i WILL buy it. anyways i have to save up just for a rainy day. like this one. but today i have no money. i acutally spent money on a rainy day so thats not good. maybe someone needs a car wash. i have some money then. but no.