i wake up and stuff and i realize that my room is a pig house. yeah i hhave crap piled on my desk and then i have felt scraps all over the place, i have papers, my binder and a bunch of old school work thats just laying around. what should i do with them? ah i have to clean tomorrow and get an appointment and then i need to find a job then think about the future like i always do. i dream a lot about the future in the morning and in the MORNING like at 1-2am before i go to sleep. then watched some tv. the outsiders was on and it was great. i love that movie. it was like a teen girls dream. tom cruise, matt dillon, patrick something a-rather, emilio something famous, c. thomas howell, ralph machicco yeah it was a good movie. i also saw airborne later today also. i went to charisses house today to celebrate jesses bday. it was fun i cooked the meat, to the best of my ability. i like to cook and stuff but i dont think im that good at cooking. i ate and ate rice and meat. we talked and watched movies. fun but i left early b/c my mom. there i also found out that a certain person is mad at a certain person b/c a certain person (me) did a "random act of meanness" you could say. but it turns out that that certain person didnt really do it. you know what im saying? you would know if you knew. i didnt mean it in malice i thought it was quite funny in my mind. but then when i realized that people were hurt i began to realize that what i did was REALLY wrong and normally i dont do this but i feel bad. i dont like it when people dont like each other for stupid reasons and they let the little things get to them. i think it is the downfall of man. we are so stuck on the little things and in result we all end up hating people. i learned to respect my enemies and "turn the other cheek." i guess you could say i dont know this person well enough to justifiy the "act or meaness" so im sorry just wont cut it. i guess all the words in the world wont make up for it. but you know what, this person can hate me or anyone this person wants to. eveyone has the right to. just so you know, you will always have a friend in me. even if there was a strain a rift or we just dont talk in a long time, i would still say hello if i say you walking down the street 10 minutes from now or 10 years from now. but im kinda low self esteemish so you could say hi to me too, but then you would probably hate me so why would someone say hi if they hated me? hmm....anyways i would in some way acknowlege your presence. like buy you a beer if i saw you at a bar or something.

back to tv... in undressed they finished the high school one and it was ok. i guess. i have no life so tv is my life. im a boring person so i have nothing really to talk about. what else? you know? im boing and i want to go camping. so ill have stories