it has been a weird week, first i have a dream about a robot that chases me an a bunch of people around school, then i go to the dance on friday....it sucked i wish i went to the show instead but my parents wer like no you have to be home by 11:30pm but im like the show wont end till later so dont go! man i wish i was 18 now and had some money and a job and a car. the dance blew it long and blew it hard! it sucked i danced only b.c the the music was playing and thats what everyone was doing. i cant dance and i dont see the big deal about dances they are not that fun and it just a bunch of people dry humping on the dance floor...because that is all i saw. i would rather stay at home put on a cd and read than go to a dance. the swim meet thing has been going great. im close to actually coming in first place. i just need to learn how to count......its great. im improving and this week we have two away meets and we swim against pacifica. last i saw them they were hanging on to the lane lines. hopefully it will be fun.....yeah i didnt get into any school so ill be applying to spring semester to schools if nothing changes. so i have a semester to work and then quit and then go to school i dont want to but its the way it has to be....no to tell my parents......but hopefully they will understand....maybe if i play the card right i can go and be the pro wakeboarder i wanted to be or intern at vagrant or drive thru records or there is always disneyland. i dont know what to do know...i guess its all in God's hands now...what do i do? i feel so stupid and left behind b.c everyone is moving forward while i stay behind....i want to move forward but i guess its gonna be later than everyone elses. i just dont know what the future holds for me i guess ill just have to wait and see.